I will not and I am not

by Andrada Costoiu

I will not ask for attention, love, 
I will not be taken for granted,
And play your games.

I will not think less of myself,
Because I deserve the best,
And I will not be your second choice.
I will value myself and I will not keep short-changing myself,
I will not live in a space that puts me in this position. 
I will not….I will not….

Note: “I will not“ and “I am not” are two very different things.  Many people are struggling in a relationship, and they tell themselves “ I will not” until it becomes a constant familiar voice. Chances are, that if you play with “I will not” too much, you are already accepting these things for yourself….and will be, until you actually do something about it.

Now read this:

I am not asking for attention, and love,
Because you never take me for granted,
You don’t play games and you love me as I am.

I am not thinking less of myself,
Because you always make me feel as I deserve the best.
I am not your second choice,
Because you always make me feel valued,
And I always want to be with you.

Note: This is where you should be, or at least what you should be looking for. There is a distance between “I will not” and “ I am not”. It is not easy to walk this distance but unless you will walk it, you will keep struggling and you will keep hurting.  I wrote this for people who are hurt, who struggle. Know that you are not alone and know where you are, know where you should be…

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Born blind

by Andrada Costoiu

Ink has dried on papers,
Where pen has pressed hearts, of black and white,
Of yellow and all other human colors….
So many books have been written,
To highlight the difference of no difference……

“Billy, can we sit here,” asked a boy his play buddy.
“Yes Andrew, lets’!”
“Do you hear the birds singing?” he asked his friend,
“Yes, they sound nice,” answered Andrew.
“They have pretty feathers too, white and brown, just like the two of you,”
Said a man sitting on the bench next to theirs,
The boys smiled, and sword fought with their white canes.

The man watched their joyful child play for a while,
“I hope that other eyes would never break your play,”
The old man said to himself.
He left, sad, dragging with him the burden of seeing colors,
And all the meanings attached to them.

You cannot feel something,
Until someone teaches you to feel something.
And sometimes, you cannot think something,
Until someone teaches you to think something.

Colors….

Red symbolizes excitement, passion and love in Western cultures
It also symbolized communism and revolution in countries like Russia.
Yellow, In Germany it represents envy,
In Egypt it means happiness and fortune.
Purple means wealth around the world. 
But in Brazil and Thailand purple is the color of mourning.


Billy and Andrew have not learned about black and white,
Born blind, 
They would have others to teach them……
And the others must never break their play.

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Damned

by Andrada Costoiu

Silence, silence!
We are gathered here today….
To judge this man and this woman.

They have abandoned themselves in the arms of one another,
They have recklessly peeled back every single layer of their souls,
Until their cores were bound together.
They have been given so many chances to edit themselves,
Many chances to write the  “not together”,
Still, today they stand in front of you,
A guilty man and a guilty woman.

You and I knew that this was almost true,
Sinners we were,
We should have put our hearts in coffins,
And listened to the sermons of two different bands.

Love…..
Is love divine grace or is love free will?

I smile…..
We’re stuck in front of the bullets
Should we pursue our love?
We’re damned if we do,
We’re damned if we don’t.

I wrote this for all the “impossible” couples out there, present, former or to be couples. Society makes you think that you should always follow the rules. But following the rules doesn’t always agree with what your heart tells you. Love is not always black and white. In fact, it is never black and white. Don’t be afraid to love……

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When love shows up

by Andrada Costoiu

Wandering souls in this world with breathtaking meadows and beautiful sunrises,
Stretches of longings speak to our desire to be loved,
And to love.
 
We’re dancing to the beat of our hearts,
Play sappy playlists,
Dream on rainy nights about an ethereal soulmate.
 
Wait! Soulmate?
How are you supposed to find yours in a world with 7.5 billion people!
If you would break down the numbers, it’s scientifically impossible…..
 
But that’s not the science of us,
Not the science of you and me.
Because….
Darling….
I knew you were coming….
A thousand stars see you at night,
And they announce your footsteps.
 
In a world limited by the four dimensions,
Our consciousness is free,
It is free to feel,
And I just know,
That love happens when it happens, and it will happen.
 
May we all find love…..or hold on to the one we have.

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You’re not alone

by Andrada Costoiu

The noise of tweaking thoughts, 
A constant rotation tricking you to stay inside,
Wrapped within yourself,
Because you think you really are as alone as you feel.
 
You’re walking your own path,
You carry with you your hopes, your dreams,
Alone,
Feeling the weight and feeling that you, only you carry your dreams, your visions.
 
But from the dark you hear steps,
You don’t look behind, but you feel it,
Then some more steps, and more….
Turning you recognize faces,
There are people that you care about, more or little,
There are people that learned from you and the ones you learned from,
There are people that passed through your life and left something…or took something,
One by one, people…..more and more people behind you.
 
You can hear your heartbeat,
You can hear and feel them,
You’re not walking alone,
All these people behind you,
Same step.
They’re walking for you…..
You’re walking for them….
You feel power,
The power of life.
The power is in you,
You want to make it worth,
Walk,
Be brave enough to follow that light that could turn your life around,
Walk,
For you, for them,
You never walked or walk alone.

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