Between paradise and despair

by Andrada Costoiu

The presence of you
Always irrevocably wins,
My want of life,
Is in your arms….

I try to understand,
The inner effervescence, the mad, the dangerous, the purity of what we all call …..love.
But I do not understand….
I don’t.

You take me high and then you bring me low,
Is this how it’s supposed to be?

Abandon means becoming and absorbing….
But how could I…..
When I’m just a human afraid of being hurt?

My heart rises up in defense of my spirit,
Beat….beat…..
Between paradise and despair….

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Awakening

by Andrada Costoiu

I can’t contain myself….
I’m searching for myself,
And I wander searching for you.

I’ve been up and down,
I’ve dissolved in the sunrays,
And I got reborn from the shadows.

Where are you?

I tried to jump
Towards the one that is not me yet,
With anticipation,
Perhaps she will know.

She did.
She could not hide her smile,
A bit filled with scorn
When she said:
“You moron,
Your sense of sight substitutes everything….”

And then I felt.

The stones crushed beneath my feet,
As I ran and knocked at the gate of your soul.
I murmured my fears and my feelings,
And you opened……

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Humanly you

by Andrada Costoiu

Weathering storms by hiding in houses,
Or deep inside yourself….
You’re caught in the game of making and unmaking.

Your human heart,
God’s open wound,
Is master of dramatic effects, both candid and frightful….

Blink….

Every day you save a part of yourself,
From the refined culture of forms and frames,
In which this world is trying to shape you or judge you by….

That’s good! 
You’re fire and not shape!
You have wings and these don’t bow,
Instead, they make you fly,
Away from the sclerotic narratives that want you down below.

Smile….

Out of the shadow of the abstract man or woman,
It’s you,
Bursting out the volcano of your being,
Poisoning the whole world with an eruption of your dreams.

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

A first

by Andrada Costoiu

Have you ever felt the beginning in motion?
There is always a first.
The virginity of a heart
Of a body,
The innocence of believing.

Remember?

No doubt we can’t avoid the danger,
And the erosion that ravish deeply through our beings. 
No doubt.

But there is always a first.

Show me
Show me inside,
I want to meet the man that sings from non-existence,
His future joys, surprises, tragedies.

Let me,
Let me inside your soul full of holes, 
And let the bond of fleeting moments fill it in.

Don’t you see?
There is always a first……
And this is our beginning. 

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

I have no cure

By Andrada Costoiu

Mechanical processes inside our perplexed souls,
Make us the guilty masters of our living.
We suffer from the automatism of doubt,
Some suffer of the automatism of faith,
And I, I am guilty of the automatism of love.

I believe in smiles, 
I cherish the slightest traces of memory from the moment I am told a name,
I think that souls are pure no matter how corrupted they’ve become.

I have no cure.

 I picked the roses you gave me,
A poisoned gift,
I would have been happier if I threw them in the fire
And not allow the ghosts to appear.

Five thousand years will pass on human scale,
Before the inner rumblings of your cheating would stop reverberating into my soul.

But it’s no use….

My innocence is not dissolved by pain,
I let you put the shackles on again and I am guilty,
For I love you and…….
I have no cure.

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Distinct (s)

by Andrada Costoiu

The necklace you gave me is pounding the first letter of my name against my chest,
Drunk on the unexpected discovery,
I wanted to free myself,
Because this what happens when belonging comes out of incomplete discovery.

When you said you loved me
I believed you,
But you were handing me your blindness.

Run…..run…..
The future is already here, 
One step ahead,
It always has been faster than me.

Alone again,
That is me in the crowd,
No gift in reading men’s souls, but always wanting.
Should I still try?
Perhaps I am blind too. 

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Inner Struggle

by Andrada Costoiu

Friends and foes,
Please gather,
Sit together and speak thy truth.
Perhaps we can settle the swords and the jabs,
Perhaps …

“Sure!” spoke Innocence, beautiful, suave creature,
From the depths of naïve knowledge, she said:
“We can reach togetherness,
After all, we are in this together….”

“Really?” says the Skepticism
“It seems that you glide through time learning nothing!
Innocence, you’re just beautiful passing beauty….”


“Passing? No!”, says Innocence,
“I’m always here, for without me how would you love?
How would you hate?”


“Love? Hate?” says Rationality
“After I made a considerable number of records over a long period of time, 
I consider that….
It’s all a pile of whims!”

“Maybe,” says the Idealism
“But the man should always create another illusion,
I am not ready to give up on dreams!”

“I am surprised you’re still here, Idealism!
In an official universe,
Where relationships, careers, life…. is predetermined,
How have you not succumbed 
To day-by-day unhappiness inertia?” asked Rationality.

“Silence! All kneel! Surrender!” shouted someone from behind,
“Accept my yoke and we will be saved!”
It was Knowledge, demanding to be queen.

They all fell silent,
Innocence became guilty,
Rationality started to bow,
Idealism became aggressive,
Knowledge……did not become queen. 

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Ode to life

by Andrada Costoiu

I am

The faith
The loss of it.

The love
For who?

The pain,
The growth.

The wisdom gained from the victory of my heart.

Descend
Into the darkness, world of ghosts
White and black, sliding in their together world.

Let me run to the fields I remember
And chase my soul only if you will pull me up…

I shall not bend….
And I shall fight…
To find my faith,
And love….

We’re never over,
You, I, all.
Light becomes darkness,
Darkness becomes light,
Fairgrounds of souls..
 
We shall not bend….
And we shall fight…
To find our faith,
To love….

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

Ghost story

by Andrada Costoiu

Photo by Rikonavt on Pexels.com

I kneel
Conjuring ancient thinkers
To ask a simple question: is death forever?

People who played their parts,
Figures of finest wisdom,
Begin seating themselves on the floor opposing to me.

The sound of a suspicious silence
Fills the room,
The consciousness of being both,
The living and the phantoms of this world,
Sends joint, mysterious and significant,  
Explanations of the meaning of life.

The room is bright,
Serviceable candles are steady,
They’re lit by poets….

I can’t pretend not to feel what I feel,
My wings that grew between storms
Spread wide to carry me once more
Towards another day, towards another night.

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.

“The antithesis of obliviousness” published in Visual Verse Anthology

by Andrada Costoiu

Photo by Michael Easterling, for Visual Verse .

I have written this poem for Visual Verse Anthology of Art and Words, it is published on page 24, you can read their current issue if you click here: Visual Verse Anthology of Art and Words. The poem is based on the picture above and represents what I saw when I looked at it.

The antithesis of obliviousness
By Andrada Costoiu

Peeking through the gates of time and space,
I seek escape from the place I am stuck.
I do not belong to this sentimental ecosystem of hollow chests,
With people that smile to convince their bodies that are happy.

In the place where no one cares,
I water the tree of love,
Pluck its leaves and send them away
To the ones who play the same game.
We connect,
If there is a wind, there is a way.

They say that romantics make the most unreliable spies,
But this time I made it.
The whole in the fence is the path,
Not slow, but fast,
I bid goodbye to the place that sings everyday happy birthday to the death of souls.

I feel like a citizen of Hades blinded by the sun.
I stumble,
The heart is a small muscle with a tremendous strength,
It got me here, across the fence, back to the place where it all started.

I am an unbound soul smitten with the eternal light,
I sync with the others, across the flying leaves,
Maybe one day we’ll break the fences of all mundane places,
And save the ones that shrug and fade into the dark.

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My new poetry book “Love poems: insights into the complicated mystery of love” is available on Amazon. You can get it here. Please write a review if you get around it. I would really appreciate it.